I WAS SO CLOSE TO LOSING MY MIND.

Well who is to say i didn't? (eloel)

I always found myself saying "man, i'd kill to have someone to talk to, "i would pay good money to have someone listen to what i had to say" I mean, who wouldn't? its easier to handle our problems if we feel like we have a support system, you cannot even imagine how many times I've begged the heavens to send me someone that will hold the space for me to be completely vulnerable. 

That's the thing about life, there's hardly anyone to talk to when you get to that point where its either you release all of the pain or you end the game. I mean really, who cares? when everybody is also busy fighting their own demons.

I was at the point where, i was willing and absolutely ready to end this beautiful game, well of course in those moments of deep sadness and helplessness there was nothing beautiful about my life, at least to me living it. I needed Peace, i needed to Declutter my Mind, which basically was the cause of my entire problem, I didn't feel safe enough to open up about my feelings to anyone, not a single soul. 

SO HERE'S WHAT I DID........

I CRIED. I CRIED A LOT. I CRIED EVERYDAY, TILL I HAD NO TEARS LEFT TO CRY, AND THEN, I STARTED A BLOG, AND WROTE THIS BLOG POST.